July 10, 2026

A few weeks back it rained from about two in the morning until three that afternoon. My Aunt Linda and I stayed in. We did not allow The Cat in the Hat inside. That agent of chaos is one of the most frightening fictional characters of my childhood. I was always afraid the fish’s bowl would break.

Aunt Linda is feeding a coterie of nicer cats on her front porch. There is a mother and father and kitten. There were two kittens but the other stopped showing up after a few weeks. I don’t like to think of its probable fate. Linda intended for me to help capture those cats and take them to be neutered or spade. She has a trap. We just never found the time.

The raccoons still show up for meals. On a day the male cat was eating he stepped aside and allowed an arriving bandit to take his place. She ate neatly (efficiently) with two hands and didn’t leave any leftovers. 

On the day the rain finally stopped I hopped in the truck and went to see what the land looked like after such an inundation of water. 

I filmed short videos of the wet-weather-creek that runs between two knobs on the north side. I followed it uphill until going further would have required major bushwhacking. 

Here is a montage video. The last five clips are of another wet weather stream near the shed on the south side of the land.

The first creek doesn’t run when it’s dry but holds pools of water near the driveway. Thirty feet away, a year-round creek goes the opposite way coming off Clinch Mountain. It is spring fed and runs under the road bisecting the corner of my property. If I get so far as to caring about having water with my dream cabin I may end up pumping it from there. This would probably be less expensive than drilling a well. 

I found two pipes coming out of the ground near the memorial stones but I’ve no idea if they are just markers or something actually related to water. It’s worthy of investigation. Next time. 

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Without working too hard this trip I made some major progress in deepening my knowledge around chainsaw milling. Trees fall all the time in these woods and I’d like to make use of them and start stockpiling lumber in case I do build a structure.

I’m imagining a stick-frame cabin as opposed to a log one. There is also a post and beam type of building, but for now I’m making 2x4s. 

My current focus is a large pine that came down a year and a half ago near the shed. An even bigger oak fell around the same time, but the oak will last longer on the ground. Making it into lumber can wait.  Besides, the softer wood of the pine is a better tree for me to learn chainsaw milling on.

I removed all the bark several weeks ago. It was like peeling a clementine. The bark fell away in chunks. It barely held to the wood and was sweet smelling and slimy underneath.

Near the tip end of the tree it revealed a colony of termites with their eggs and along the entire length were white grubs with accordion-like bodies and copper-colored heads.  These are the larval stage of the sawyer beetle an important forest decomposer and one of 35,000 species in the longhorn beetle family. 

termites
sawyer beetle grub

Bark removal is recommended for chainsaw milling because bark rapidly dulls the blades. In this regard the sawyer beetles did me a favor. Those grubs introduced the water and space that made the bark fall away easily without the hard chore of using a drawknife. However, where they’d been at work the longest—in the top third of the log—the wood was no longer viable as structural lumber because of the finger-sized holes made by the beetles. 

I made some slab passes through the most eaten up piece just to see how deep the holes went. The answer was deep—- to the center. 

Information about these beetles said they go into the wood as larvae and come out as adults, but I imagine there are times when they do second or third dives. I found this one that seemed pretty grown and it was headed into the log, not out of it.

I’m not sure where this beetles long antennae are. Did they fall off? Unformed? Coiled under the body?

Headed may not be the best word to describe these beetles. For the longest time I studied it and couldn’t see the head. In fact I wondered if I’d cut it off when passing over it with the chainsaw.  All I was seeing was a neck. Then I realized their heads point down at a right angle which from the top side make them look like the headless horse…beetle. 

This video shows me teasing out the beetle that was revealed where I just passed over it with my saw.

At all stages, these insects have body qualities that I imagine help them dig in. It’s all theory to me, but as grubs, it looks like they can squish up their accordions to get some extra push and as adults their long legs with spiked tarsi appear like a rowing team pretty much oaring their way into the wood. (You can’t hardly peel them off your finger when they attach and I didn’t want those wood-eating mandibles anywhere near my flesh.)

The big win in material and educating myself in chainsaw milling came with the next log. I finally found a way to get a level, even surface from my first cut. This cut is the most difficult. If you look on YouTube you will find people making this cut fifty different ways—using ladders, rails or planks, over simplifying how they measure or under simplifying to the degree that it feels like you need a flow chart to understand. Finally I was able to synthesize enough information to get a decent result. The planks I cut will still need additional squaring to become 2x4s but at least I’ve got slabs with consistent thickness and length. 

Here was my set up that worked for an initial cut. I screwed level boards into both ends, laid two, ten-foot, very straight, treated 2x4s across them as rails and then slipped in short, cross 2x4s where they fit to additionally support the rails. Without rail rigidity I wouldn’t be able to retain a consistent thickness in my slabs.
This picture shows what doesn’t work for a first cut – simply laying a board on top as guide. The mill follows the ups and downs of every knot. By setting rails that hover above the log (as seen in the first picture) a clean, even cut can be made that is not guided by hills and valleys on the log. 
Here are the six, nine-foot slabs I milled
from one log.

This  sped up video shows me cutting a slab with a voice over explaining a little about the process. 
I love the mirroring the slabs show when laid side by side.

Another big win during this trip was learning to use the battery powered chainsaw sharpener. I had a hang up about digging in to this. I knew it would be time-consuming (and it was), but after sharpening one of the cross-cut chains I feel confident I’ll be able to sharpen those and, more importantly, the ripping chains which dull quickly due to the amount of time they spend in the wood. I will have three of these waiting for me when I return in the fall. 

To continue with the wins, I found a good use for the four-ton farm jack I bought on a whim a few years ago. I knew it might come in handy for positioning logs for milling, but I hadn’t been able to figure how until the need arose. Until that happened, the cant hook is a tool that’s served me well. 

I can roll very large logs with the cant hook and isolate the end I don’t want moved by wedging it. I can also raise a log off the ground by rolling it up a ramp onto another log or makeshift pedestal. 

However, it doesn’t work if I want to get a log higher than my strength will allow or where building or cutting a longer ramp would be extra time-consuming. 

A cant also can’t help with lifting the end of a log still attached to the stump. In these scenarios the farm jack comes in handy. 

I successfully raised this log still attached to the stump to get it out of the dirt of another stump and protect it from rot. I will still need to figure out how to safely cut it free, but this is a temporary solution until then. 

The last thing I’ll mention isn’t exactly a win, but I’ve stepped into the arena of learning more about rocks with the purchase of this rock hammer. I played with hitting it on some different rocks. 

A boxy piece of sandstone broke out to make this sort of fox-shaped head. Similar blows on a darker colored rock would not separate it, but revealed it’s heartiness and tendency to create sparks


It’s been a week now since I’ve been back in California—back to life surrounded by all the responsibilities and possibilities that come with one’s home. It has taken some getting used to. In Tennessee I have something closer to a singular purpose: to work, explore and be on the land.

I have a friend who used to have a bumpersticker on a truck she owned. It was a simple statement in all caps: TREES ROCK. I’m already missing those trees and rocks.

After the rain stopped the day I took videos of water, I used the softened conditions to dig up stumps on the ground of the proposed cabin site. At one point I reached down and collected a handful of the soaked, white-clay that lies beneath the green moss. The clay topsoil there is unique to any other spot on my land.  

I walked through the woods and worked it into a ball that I placed on one of the abutments of the bridge span I’d taken out. 

On my last day I made a driveway pole gate.

I charred the post where I would set it in the ground to protect it from pests and decay.

I sorted tools, straightened up the shed and painted the ends of the logs I want to protect for milling when I return. 

Before I closed the gate and left, I picked up that clay ball again. It was hard and dry now. It felt good in my hands, almost a perfect sphere—solid and fine-sandpaper-smooth, all the more satisfying because I made it myself and because it came from this land that I love. 

June 27, 2026

A friend from up Johnson City-way came to visit and took this picture of me in the shed turning on one of the nice camping lights my housemate Jillian gave me. 

Last week I was holed up in the shed waiting for a big rainstorm to stop. I began putting all my tools away as soon as it started. It was the end of the day anyway and I was ready to go. For a while I enjoyed standing in the shed videoing the rain on the clear plexiglass part of the roof. But then I was over it. If I didn’t go now I might be there another half hour.

I don’t like the idea of walking through these woods in a strong storm. From the shed to the proposed cabin spot to the newly made driveway there are multiple widow-makers—big, dead trees hung up with other trees just waiting for the elements to bring them down. At least three of them cross over my main path.

I’d forgotten to bring my rain jacket and pants. Instead I grabbed the blue plastic sled I sometimes use to haul rocks. I put the chain through the cut out hole in the door, locked it and held the sled over my head. I slow-jogged under the canopy of trees that were no longer acting as an umbrella but releasing a torrent of drops. 

When I was halfway to the flat spot, I heard cracking timber. I had just passed under the hung up tree in this section— a pine, leaning over the path about twenty feet up. I didn’t stop to turn around and inspect. 

The next morning when I came back that tree had dropped to five feet above the path and collected a few sapling gums that made a bendy-limbed, leafy barrier impossible to duck under. The dead tree was wedged between two standing trees next to the path and ten feet past this it was broken in a backward-leaning right angle still connected by a thick hinge of stretched wood.  

This fifty foot upper half was now also over the path making it the newer, more dangerous widow-maker and the firmly wedged lower half was mostly just an obstacle to moving along the trail. I went to get my chainsaws and came back to study how to chop it down. 

These are my three saws. The Echo is from the mid-90s. It may be my favorite saw just because it’s light and easy to use. 

Chainsawing is all about compression and tension and how to read the position of logs and trees. I’m not very good at it and my brain starts to hurt sometimes when I’m trying to figure it out. Anything to do with cause and effect tends to confuse me. Cause: The child hit the baseball. Effect: It broke the window. But now breaking the window becomes the cause. A parent is going to get mad or maybe a secret is kept. A child will learn an invaluable lesson about being honest or possibly a demoralizing one. It’s sort of an endless chain of events that starts with that butterfly flapping its wings.  

In the case of chainsawing there are often multiple dynamics going on with the same log and then the dynamics can change as you take pieces away.

In the case of the tree that fell across the trail my picture below depicts the scenario.

The red line shows where the compression is on the log. Here the wood fibers are being pushed together.  This is the part of the log that is doing most of the weight-bearing. On the opposite side of the log is the tension side. Here the wood fibers are being pulled apart. 

The most common problem in chainsawing is getting your bar pinched. The chain stops moving and then you are stuck. Sometimes you can use a tire iron or a skinny log to relieve the squeeze and pull the saw out. More often you have to use another chainsaw or an ax to cut it out. 

I’ve gotten my chainsaw stuck a dozen times or more. It’s usually because I haven’t read the the laws of mechanics the right way. That happened with removing the tree in my drawing. I took out a wedge on the tension side and then tried to finish by sawing up to the wedge on the compresion side. It was the opposite of what I should have done. You finish on the side that wants to open, not the side that wants to close! 

This video shows the moment when the saw got stuck.

This would have been a routine removal of my stuck chainsaw but for the fact I was sawing eight feet up in the air. 

I tied the chainsaw to a rope attached to the tree so when it was cut loose it wouldn’t hit the ground. I tried to finish the cut with my small saw which needed to have the idle adjusted. Revving it very high was the only way to keep it going and then it would cut out after a few seconds. This video shows it doing that just as I was about to finish the job. 

The next video shows what happened when I was about to climb the ladder to check how close I was to being through the wood. Wait for it!

This last video is an example of me cutting a log the right way with the correct physics in mind. This is the big fallen white pine near the shed that I’m cutting into pieces for milling. This is another wait-for-it experience.

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This was once a proper outhouse. Now it is just the out without the house. It was built in the 1970s by neighbors who bought the old farmhouse that was across the road. I’m proud to say I’ve now reinitiated it. The subject of defecating in the outdoors has come up in my blogs before. Well it turns out that defecating into a rectangular concrete mold is very easy. No smooth oval seat bolted into plywood needed! Positioned over a corner, the sides make great handrails. This double-seater was made to accommodate an adult or child.

I’m now considering never building the house for this out. It is surrounded by thick woods and on the road side a steep incline makes the woods even thicker. The shed is blocking a view from the trail. Besides, I’m rarely here with anyone other than an occasional friend who I can just tell, “I’m going to use the out so don’t come down that way.” 

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I’ve had moments of missing Sasha terribly. Here we are in a conference call. She’s barely listening to me. She’d really rather I just let her do her job keeping watch out the front window. 

Okay, that’s all I’ve got from the land in the slow geologic wake of Clinch Mountain. I hope you are well.

July 20, 2025

I’ve been back home more than two weeks and I’ve struggled to get out this blog post. Everything I experienced in Tennessee now feels like bunched up laundry in a bag and I’m trying to dig through it to find specific pieces. Is there a theme I can work with? What stories are worth telling? What is the overall feeling I came away with? 

I think I need to start with this picture of my first piece of sawn lumber:

This measures 2.625” x 5.625” x 6 feet 8.75 inches.
Standard measurements weren’t my concern as much as cutting something square.

My whole trip felt like it was leading up to this yet it wasn’t until the last two days that I got it together to actually try out my new equipment. 

The Alaskan Mill came in a flat box and I put it together a few days later. For the next two weeks the bulky metal frame sat on Aunt Linda’s living room floor while I got my thoughts and courage together. 

To call this product a mill is a bit of a misnomer. As a noun, the word means a place where things are cut. It goes without saying that the place has to have the machinery to do the cutting. In this case the mill houses the chainsaw and guides it through timber. 

I’d finally gotten comfortable using my smaller chainsaw. Now I’d purchased one twice as powerful and I was going to attach it to this apparatus that together would make it all weigh close to forty pounds.

No single Youtube video answered all my questions about using the mill. Most showed people milling sectioned logs, but I wanted to mill directly off the fallen trees. My thought was that cutting a log, then moving and lifting it onto a level platform would be a difficult waste of time.

This drawing illustrates some of my thought process for milling directly off a fallen tree. For now the pros outweigh the cons although along with the dangers of working on uneven, hazardous terrain I discovered another threat while cross cutting a small tree that had fallen across a path. After cutting off most of the tree, the remainder, relieved of the downward weight, quickly stood back up. Small though it was, it might have smacked me in the head. Thinking of that same situation with a very large tree, a person milling off the end might find themselves suddenly catapulted fifty yards across the forest. The arrows above are meant to show how a massive root ball could stand a tree back upright into its crater. Youtube has hundreds of videos detailing ways to kill yourself with a chainsaw and most don’t involve getting cut.

I ordered a cheap companion mill—a Timber Tuff guide—to square the sides of the downed trees with vertical cuts rather than using the Alaskan Mill which would require turning the log.

It was a lengthy learning process making my first piece of lumber. With experience it might have taken just ten minutes. It took me three hours.  

This hundred foot White pine came down sometime after my last trip to Tennessee in January. It was right next to the pine that I cut into a bridge three years ago. I started milling at the other end.

I first cleaned up the end cutting off branches and clearing the area around it.

I used a draw knife to cut the bark. This may have been an unnecessary step but it reduced the sticky sap being slung everywhere during sawing .

My first cut was too deep but it prepared a level surface for making subsequent edge cuts and the next horizontal plank cut.

My single piece of lumber was milled off this.

Entirely too many things on my head, but the respirator is recommended because the chainsaw is running constantly when milling and there is a lot of exhaust and sawdust.
I was happy to find a use for my overzealous first cut. It was much thicker than I wanted because of a measuring error. I envision more benches like this along the walking trails.

Why That First Piece of Lumber Took So Long to Mill

*I practiced putting the chainsaw in the Alaskan Mill before leaving home, but this had to be relearned in the field.

*The countersink on my drill bit was not sinking and I didn’t have the right size allen wrench to tighten it. (My chosen guide system uses planks attached to the log. You can also use rail kits designed for these mills or an aluminum ladder.) 

*I lost the allen wrench I ended up borrowing from a neighbor and kept stopping to look for it in the same places I’d already checked five times. It eventually turned up in the little watch pocket in my jeans. (When I’m working I try to remember where I put things by repeating it to myself. For example, Machete stuck in ground next to leaning tree. Machete stuck in ground next to leaning tree. Sometimes it works; sometimes my little haiku just turns into rhythmic sounds that fifteen minutes later are a distant memory. In this case I never said, Allen wrench in little watch pocket. Allen wrench in little watch pocket.

*I only had one screw gun and was constantly changing between using a drill bit and a star bit.

*I was stuck using the scrench (screwdriver/wrench) that came with the mill so every time I had to adjust the mill or move the chainsaw from the Alaskan to the Timber Tuff I had to do the old scrench on, scrench off dance.

*I screwed down the guide plank to use again after the log was squared. (Once the log is flat on top that becomes the guide for more horizontal cuts.) 

*More dancing—the measuring marks on the Alaskan are very hard to read causing me to do the ole glasses on, glasses off. (I may try to paint some enamel into the debossed marks on the metal to see it better.) 

The next day things went faster when I started working on the fallen oak on the other piece of land. That morning I drove into Halls and bought a set of allen wrenches, another screw gun—an impact driver for versatility—and a ratchet and socket set. Having the correct tools is sometimes half the
battle—when it isn’t all of it.

There was no reason for me to move from the pine tree to the oak to do more milling. There was still plenty of pine tree left. I simply wanted to try the new chainsaw and mills on the harder wood and see, smell and feel that different grain. 

125 foot oak next to the falling cabin
root ball of fallen oak
First horizontal cut of oak. There wasn’t enough space to mill this limb and keep it elevated on the tree.
left side edged
The first three boards are one-inch thick. The last one is thicker because there wasn’t room for the chainsaw motor head to mill another one-inch piece that close to the ground. I’ll find a way to elevate logs and make them level. It’s all trial and error for me now. The tool on the right is called a cant and you really can’t do without one if you are moving logs.

It began raining while I was milling the oak and I was able to shelter and move tools into the falling cabin, but the wet oak was harder to mill after that. I think the chain needed sharpening at this point too. Ripping chains dull quicker than regular cross cut chains because they are tearing through more lumber for a sustained time.

On my next trip back I’ll try out another time saver: I’ll get a ripping chain for my smaller saw and see if it has enough power for the vertical, Timber Tuff cuts. If it does I won’t have to change out the big saw from the Alaskan Mill.

Before I left I painted the cut ends with latex paint to help protect the wood from insects and checking.

I’m one step closer to believing in the viability of milling my own wood for the cabin project and doing it with my own labor. I need more practice with the Alaskan Mill, but I’ve gotten over the hurdle of using it for the first time and don’t feel overly intimidated. 

Along with this big step forward in logistics I got some other work done. I cleared the oak tree limbs off the fallen cabin and put out a large stack of free firewood from the pieces that I chainsawed.

I did the biannual clearing of trails.

I moved five large brush piles off the cabin site into the woods. In the process I’m providing homes for wild animals that might like to move into the heaps of sticks and leaves.

The most immediately satisfying thing I did was replace almost a whole half of the corrugated tin roof of the shed with clear,  polycarbonate panels that let light in. The shed has been a dark, somewhat scary dungeon filled with very large fishing spiders, wasps, evidence of mice and, I imagine, the occasional resting place for snakes to curl up. My previous attempt to light it with battery operated camping lanterns was a failure. Most often I just used my phone to spotlight around the room. These panels have brought natural light in. Now I can see every corner of the place without fear that reaching for a hammer might mean grabbing hold of something that will make me scream. 

There was evidence of more snakes. This skin was found not far from my previous snake sighting on the cabin site and this small snake at the falling cabin.

I want to amend my previous idea that the black snake I saw earlier was a black racer. I now believe it was a rat snake. I found one newly killed on the road. Its black was similarly lustrous and it seemed about the same size. The belly was completely white — a part I couldn’t see on the live snake.

I was very happy that my old college friend Julie and her husband Dave came for a visit and that I got to show them the land. We picked raspberries and walked through the woods. Julie used her bird call app on her phone to identify several birds including a Pileated woodpecker. Birds are hard to see during summer in these woods because of the amount of leaf cover. Pileated woodpeckers are so cool and I’m happy to know at least one might be hanging around. Here we are sitting on my new bench:

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I’d like to end this post with an anti-sentimental song that I found to be absolutely gorgeous and moving. As I was driving back and fourth to the land I found a fantastic radio station, WDVX, out of Clinton, TN.

One morning I was listening and I heard this song, Last of the Better Days Ahead, by Charlie Parr. Maybe because I was a week away from turning sixty and was thinking a lot about Stewart who had died and how you never know how many days you have left…maybe also because I had really stupidly backed into my cousin’s car and done over ten thousand dollars worth of damage and was focused on the money that I’d have to shell out for my increased insurance premiums along with the extra hassle I’d created for people…

this song broke through all that and made me ponder what is most important…

If you clink on the link below, then the black arrow on the Bandcamp website you can hear this beautiful song.

https://charlieparrmusic.bandcamp.com/track/last-of-the-better-days-ahead